Somewhere Over the Rainbow

Just the other day I prayed for a sign. Hard. I wanted to see something or hear something. I wanted to know that my sweet William was with me. Nothing came. And then a friend posted a rainbow emoji on my Facebook status. It immediately took me back to the day that we celebrated William's life. It was such an emotional day. It was a day that I didn't really know I wanted or needed. He was so young and we had already had family in town the week before for his baptism. But we had a small church service that was followed by fellowship at my moms house. We decided to do a balloon release for him. When deciding how many balloons to get I realized he had been with us on Earth for 107 days. So I ordered 107 balloons. {logistically I hadn't thought of how to actually pick up 107 balloons from the store...but we did it!!} It was a GORGEOUS day. Fluffy white clouds and the brightest blue sky. We all grabbed a couple of balloons and headed outside. All at once we let the balloons go. It was a magical moment watching all of those balloons stick together and fly high in the sky. They could have scattered, but they didn't! Later that afternoon after most of the family had left, we were sitting around my moms house and a storm came through. At the end of the storm, God presented me with the most beautiful gift I have ever received. It was like He scooped me up and said "Sara, he's ok. He's home now". At that moment it hit me harder than ever : how can anyone question the power of the Holy Spirit? How can it be that just hours earlier we sent 107 colorful balloons up to the heavens and now I am witnessing the most beautiful, end to end, DOUBLE rainbow. GOD was there for me. He knew what I needed and when I needed it. My sweet boy was in the arms of the most Heavenly Father. It simply took my breath away.

Today, I may hope for a sign, but I know that I have received the most precious sign ever. A welcoming gift into the Heavens on that day...and I was able to witness it. As I sit here wanting to celebrate my sons birthday WITH him, I know he is having a far better celebration elsewhere. No tears today because the only song that comes to mind is "this is the day that the Lord has made, let us REJOICE and be glad in it!" Happy birthday William. Not a day goes by that I don't celebrate you and love you. {Here's a little history of my "signs". I lost my dad when I was in my first year of college. For some reason rainbows always followed me after that. And then I lost my papaw a few years later. When we moved to California I was having a really difficult time. One day out of nowhere, a rainstorm came through and produced a double rainbow. I knew it was the two of them reassuring me it would be ok. About a year later, on the day I found out I was pregnant with Jack, a double rainbow appeared out of nowhere...}